Today is CD 2, and I am trying to decide what I really want to do about this cycle. Last week, DH said that he wants to keep trying this month, and I am totally fine with that. But, how much effort do I want to invest?
Obviously we will try and time our BD appropriately, but I am not sure how much more than that I want to do. I am not going to monitor my temps again this month and I am not using my CBEFM. I have two OPKS left from last cycle, so I am trying to decide if I should buy more or just hope that I can get lucky using two. My other dilemma is with Clomid. I have one refill left on my prescription and it is only about $8 to get it filled. As far as my RE is concerned, I am guessing that he is assuming I won't take it since we have found out about the chromosome issue, so I wouldn't plan on calling for a monitoring appointment. Part of me thinks that I should just go ahead and get the Clomid filled, while another part thinks that I will just be causing myself unnecessary stress and wasting my time. Clomid hasn't ever really caused me too bad of side effects...I hate how I let myself stress out over nothing.
I am guessing that I will probably end up refilling my Clomid, not buying more OPKs, and then just relying on the two I have plus my own wisdom of when we should BD. Anyone have any thoughts? I am sure that it won't really matter and I will be in this same position next month, still worrying over nothing.
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Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Enjoying the "Break"
I'm not taking a break from TTC, but I am taking a break from BBT. AF arrived yesterday afternoon, so today was my first "break" day. Maybe this wouldn't seem like such a big deal to most people, but it was SO nice to be able to get up this morning without having to worry about what my temperature was and whether I was checking it at the right time. I am also taking a break from the CBEFM and trying a regular old OPK instead. Once again, it was so nice to not have to worry about that. It has been at least a year since I have been able to get up in the morning without having to worry about checking my temp or using the CBEFM. I feel so FREE!
The plan is to start taking Clomid 50mg again tomorrow. There is a small chance that we will try IUI this cycle, but I don't think the timing will work out. We are going out of town on CD 13, which I am assuming would be too early for an IUI, right? Plus, depending on the test results, that could all be irrelevant and go out the window, anyway.
For the meanwhile, I am just enjoying my less restrictive cycle and hoping that this could be our month. I am feeling more optimistic than normal this time...not really sure why. Normally, I always have this "I'm just not feeling it" feeling in my gut, but now I am more excited. Maybe it is the Clomid, or maybe it is the fact that we are going on vacation. But for a change, it is nice to feel optimistic and hopeful, rather than like I am just going through the motions.
On another note, I got the sweetest e-mail from DH's younger brother yesterday. His brother, T, is living out of the country right now, so he tries to send a weekly e-mail to all of the family to keep us updated on his life. In yesterday's e-mail he included a little note for DH and me which basically said that he wanted us to know that he is praying for us and our kid situation every night and that he believes it will happen for us. I thought it was really sweet that a 20 year old kid would not only be doing that, but also send me that note. It was so thoughtful and encouraging to remember that we aren't in this alone. Not only are there so many other couples in this situation, but our family is so supportive and are our biggest cheerleaders.
The plan is to start taking Clomid 50mg again tomorrow. There is a small chance that we will try IUI this cycle, but I don't think the timing will work out. We are going out of town on CD 13, which I am assuming would be too early for an IUI, right? Plus, depending on the test results, that could all be irrelevant and go out the window, anyway.
For the meanwhile, I am just enjoying my less restrictive cycle and hoping that this could be our month. I am feeling more optimistic than normal this time...not really sure why. Normally, I always have this "I'm just not feeling it" feeling in my gut, but now I am more excited. Maybe it is the Clomid, or maybe it is the fact that we are going on vacation. But for a change, it is nice to feel optimistic and hopeful, rather than like I am just going through the motions.
On another note, I got the sweetest e-mail from DH's younger brother yesterday. His brother, T, is living out of the country right now, so he tries to send a weekly e-mail to all of the family to keep us updated on his life. In yesterday's e-mail he included a little note for DH and me which basically said that he wanted us to know that he is praying for us and our kid situation every night and that he believes it will happen for us. I thought it was really sweet that a 20 year old kid would not only be doing that, but also send me that note. It was so thoughtful and encouraging to remember that we aren't in this alone. Not only are there so many other couples in this situation, but our family is so supportive and are our biggest cheerleaders.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Confusing Clomid
So, I thought one of the benefits of taking Clomid is that it is supposed to make your cycles be more regular??? Here I am on CD 17 and feeling super confused. Last week at the u/s, the RE said that it looked like I was Oing or about to O. I thought that was great news! I was having some O pain plus some EWCM. The only concern I had was that I hadn't gotten a peak on my CBEFM. DH and I made sure that we BD and thought that all was good. Fast forward to today, and I still haven't gotten a peak, I haven't seen a consistent temperature rise, I am having some slight O pains, plus I have more EWCM than I did on CD 12!!! WTF!?! I don't know if I should just assume that I did O based on the RE's assessment, or is my body just confused and messed up? If I haven't O'd, I don't want to stop BD and risk missing it, but at the same time, I don't want to keep scheduling it if it isn't necessary. I know that we have to keep BD until I am sure one way or the other, but still...
Monday, April 12, 2010
Monitoring Appointment
I had my monitoring appointment for my first Clomid cycle last Friday. Everything went really well. My doctor wasn't in, so I saw another RE in the office. He was really helpful. He told me that he could see two follies and that it *appeared* that I was ovulating right around the appointment time. Apparently there was quite a bit of fluid that he could see on the u/s that indicated O? He told me to make sure we "try to get pg" for the next four days and then I will either by KU or AF will come.
The frustrating thing is that my CBEFM still hasn't shown a peak. It never peaked last month, so this could be the second month in a row that it missed it. I guess it is possible I still haven't O'd yet...but I think that I did. My O pains have gone away and I haven't had as much EWCM. My temps haven't been really conclusive, but I also got up super early this morning, so I don't feel that today's was super accurate. So, while I am hoping that the Clomid works this time and I end up KU, I am also thinking about trying an OPK in addition to the CBEFM. I have heard the Clear Blue Easy OPKs are good, but does anyone have any recommendations?
So yesterday during church our Bishop got up and started talking about how he and his wife have struggled with IF. He said that they got their twins through IVF (which I knew) and that there other daughter was a miracle baby. He talked about how they would really like to have a fourth child, and that the process of going through IF has really taught him and his wife about how aware God is of their family. Of course I ended up crying, but I thought it was kind of cool how he would be so open and talk about this struggle. A few minutes later, another lady got up and talked about how she gave birth a few weeks ago to her son who had died in-utero. At that point, I got really choked up and started crying even more. I don't really know this person (I just know who she is), but it struck me about how common of a problem having children is. Most of us grow up thinking that we will be able to have as many babies as we want and that they will come when we want them. Instead, so many of us are faced with this struggle...it doesn't discriminate.
The frustrating thing is that my CBEFM still hasn't shown a peak. It never peaked last month, so this could be the second month in a row that it missed it. I guess it is possible I still haven't O'd yet...but I think that I did. My O pains have gone away and I haven't had as much EWCM. My temps haven't been really conclusive, but I also got up super early this morning, so I don't feel that today's was super accurate. So, while I am hoping that the Clomid works this time and I end up KU, I am also thinking about trying an OPK in addition to the CBEFM. I have heard the Clear Blue Easy OPKs are good, but does anyone have any recommendations?
So yesterday during church our Bishop got up and started talking about how he and his wife have struggled with IF. He said that they got their twins through IVF (which I knew) and that there other daughter was a miracle baby. He talked about how they would really like to have a fourth child, and that the process of going through IF has really taught him and his wife about how aware God is of their family. Of course I ended up crying, but I thought it was kind of cool how he would be so open and talk about this struggle. A few minutes later, another lady got up and talked about how she gave birth a few weeks ago to her son who had died in-utero. At that point, I got really choked up and started crying even more. I don't really know this person (I just know who she is), but it struck me about how common of a problem having children is. Most of us grow up thinking that we will be able to have as many babies as we want and that they will come when we want them. Instead, so many of us are faced with this struggle...it doesn't discriminate.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Good News!!!
When I got to work this morning, I saw that I had an e-mail from the genetic counselor we have been working with. She told us that she was able to get the chromosome testing approved!!! I guess the problem is that there is only one doctor on the review committee that is really familiar with genetic testing and why someone in our situation would need it. So, she scheduled the appeal when she knew he would be there, which resulted in our approval! I am just waiting for her to fax the order to the lab, and then I can go get the testing done. The results will take about three weeks to get, but at least then we will know either way.
As a reminder...My RE recommended that I get tested for a chromosome balance translocation because it runs in my family. My mom has it, and she had eight m/c (although she was able to have five kids). If I have it, there is a good chance that some of my eggs would be affected so badly that it would not be compatible with life. He said that any pg would have a 2/3 chance of m/c. So, if we do have it, he is recommending we go straight to IVF. I am keeping my fingers crossed that the testing comes out all clear. The RE said that he would guess there is a greater than 10% chance that I have it, so I guess the odds are hopefully in my favor that everything comes back okay.
In other news...tomorrow is my first monitoring appointment. I am a little nervous. I wish that there was a way to already know that the Clomid is working - like I could feel my follies growing or something. I have had a few O-type twinges, so hopefully things will go well at tomorrow's appointment!
As a reminder...My RE recommended that I get tested for a chromosome balance translocation because it runs in my family. My mom has it, and she had eight m/c (although she was able to have five kids). If I have it, there is a good chance that some of my eggs would be affected so badly that it would not be compatible with life. He said that any pg would have a 2/3 chance of m/c. So, if we do have it, he is recommending we go straight to IVF. I am keeping my fingers crossed that the testing comes out all clear. The RE said that he would guess there is a greater than 10% chance that I have it, so I guess the odds are hopefully in my favor that everything comes back okay.
In other news...tomorrow is my first monitoring appointment. I am a little nervous. I wish that there was a way to already know that the Clomid is working - like I could feel my follies growing or something. I have had a few O-type twinges, so hopefully things will go well at tomorrow's appointment!
Friday, April 2, 2010
Friday Thoughts
Today is my third day on Clomid. So far, I haven't noticed any crazy side effects, which is a relief. The only thing I have noticed is that my boobs are a little sore and I have been waking up a few times in the night because I am hot. I am sure that DH is relieved I haven't been feeling too crazy. I warned him that I heard some people end up getting really bitchy, so he was expecting the worst.
We got our information packet from the adoption agency yesterday. Basically, their charge is 10% of your gross annual income, with a minimum charge of $4000 and a maximum charge of $10,000. DH and I didn't really get a chance to talk about all of the information (my cousin is staying with us for a few days while she visits from CA), but I guess we just need to talk about it and decide whether we are ready to take that plunge, or if we want to just stick with what we are doing now.
I am really looking forward to this weekend. My church has a semi-annual general conference, which is basically when our prophet and other church leaders speak to church members via a broadcast on Saturday and Sunday. I always love getting that spiritual boost. Plus, on Saturday night, there is a meeting that is held just for the guys. My friends and I have started a girls night out tradition during this time, and we always have so much fun! We are still trying to decide on all the details...we will for sure go to dinner, and then either go shopping, see a movie, or get pedicures.
I am also excited for Sunday, because we are having Easter dinner at my house. This is the first holiday that I have ever hosted at my house, so I am a little nervous, but I think it will be fun. My family plus my MIL and her husband are coming over, so we should have a good group. Have a happy Easter!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
CD 1, "The Talk", and My Plan
Yesterday was CD 1. AF arrived right on schedule...I suppose that I should be grateful that at least one part of my reproductive system is working right! I haven't been too upset at all about this CD 1. I think it is because I just never was really "feeling it" this cycle and because I decided to POAS.
On Sunday, DH and I had the adoption talk. I told him that I didn't want to stop TTC on our own and I hadn't given up hope of having biological children, but that I also wanted to explore the adoption option. He was initially very resistant, saying that it was too soon and he didn't want to "put his name in that basket" just yet. He also said that he thought we couldn't afford adoption, but then I reminded him that our insurance will actually contribute much more towards adoption expenses than infertility. We talked about it a lot more yesterday, and we decided that we will tentatively look into it. Meaning, we are planning on attending an orientation-type meeting at the agency we know we would want to use.
So, this is my plan:
On Sunday, DH and I had the adoption talk. I told him that I didn't want to stop TTC on our own and I hadn't given up hope of having biological children, but that I also wanted to explore the adoption option. He was initially very resistant, saying that it was too soon and he didn't want to "put his name in that basket" just yet. He also said that he thought we couldn't afford adoption, but then I reminded him that our insurance will actually contribute much more towards adoption expenses than infertility. We talked about it a lot more yesterday, and we decided that we will tentatively look into it. Meaning, we are planning on attending an orientation-type meeting at the agency we know we would want to use.
So, this is my plan:
- I am still working on getting the insurance to cover the chromosome testing. We are filing an appeal this week, but who knows how long it will take to get that to go through.
- While we are waiting on the insurance, my RE is letting my try Clomid this cycle. This will be my first cycle on Clomid. Any advice, suggestions, or warnings???
- I will call the agency and see when the next meeting will be.
I am feeling pretty good about things this month. I am hoping that maybe the Clomid will do the trick for us this month (or maybe just a miracle will happen). If not, I still feel like we are heading in the right direction!
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