Sunday, January 9, 2011

Back to Work

I am headed back to my first day of work since J was born tomorrow. I will admit that a (very small) part of me has missed my job, but I definitely am wishing that I didn't have to go back. The bright spot is that I will only be working 3 days a week, so at least I will be home a little bit with J. Everyone has warned me that I should fully expect to be in tears when I go in, so we'll see what happens.

My sister moved in with us last weekend, and she is going to be watching J while I am working. We are going to be paying her a little, plus she is getting free room and board. We figured that we would rather have family watch J than have to place him in daycare. My sister is wonderful with kids and has worked as a private duty nanny and as a daycare teacher for a while, so I trust her completely. I just wish that it was me that got to spend the time with him. What if he starts to confuse us? Or thinks that we are the same person? What if he becomes more attached to my sister than he does to me?

I also have the ultrasound looming ahead on Tuesday. Part of me feels very comfortable and confident that things are going to go well, and the other part of me is a nervous wreck. DH is still trying to figure out if he will be able to leave work to come with me. I asked my sister to watch J, since the RE's office doesn't allow you to bring your babies. She doesn't know why she is watching him, just that I have a doctor's appointment to go to. We figured that if everything goes well at the appointment, we will tell her what is going on, since she is living with us.

So, wish me luck as I return to work tomorrow and try to keep my hopes up for Tuesday!


  1. best of luck for your first day back to work - I can only imagine how tough it will be to be away from him, but it's great that he'll be in such good hands.

    Sending you good thoughts for Tuesday and hoping everything will look perfect!

  2. Good luck on your first day back! I know when we finally have a little one it will be hard to go back to work too.

    Hoping all goes well with the us on tuesday!

  3. Good luck back at work. It is hard not to worry about J being taken care of by anyone but you. I promise, J will not get more attached to your sister. I have a friend who had to put her son in full time daycare. He knows who his mommy is and she is the love of his life. I know it will be that way with J also.

    Praying for your u/s on Tuesday.

  4. I am still trying to catch up from pre-Christmas time and I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE PREGNANT!!! What amazing news! When I read that, I was like, is this the same BrownIris who just adopted? What?

    How incredibly exciting, even though I know you feel like you have to be cautious and take it day by day but I'm truly excited for you! Can't wait to hear more!

  5. Ohhh must be so hard to go back to work!! Especially with everything going on. Thinking of you.

  6. I will say a prayer for you tomorrow that everything goes perfect with your US....Hope going back to work wasnt to tramatic:)