Well, I must admit that my first week back to work wasn't too bad. I did shed a few tears when I had to leave J on Monday, but it wasn't anything too crazy. I think that it has helped that I am working Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, so I still get to spend every other day home with J. He is such a sweet and well-tempered baby, so it isn't like I feel a need for a break or anything like that. J is growing and developing so much right now, so I worry that I will miss something. For example, he is so close to laughing - we got him laughing a little bit last night, but what if when he really begins laughing, it is with my sister?
I am also hoping that I will be able to blog more now that I am back at work. I used to do most of my blogging on my lunch break, so maybe I can get into a good rhythm again and try to stay caught up with what is going on with everyone.
I feel like the first tri symptoms have definitely kicked in more - and I am NOT complaining. There has been much more nausea, a little bit of vomiting, and more fatigue. DH keeps telling me that I should complain to him, but I don't feel like I can. It isn't that I don't think he will listen or sympathize. It's the fact that I have been wanting to get pregnant for over two years and I have always said that I would be so grateful to be sick if that is what it took to have a baby. I still feel that way. I am SO grateful for this opportunity and I pray that it will last and this baby will keep growing and be healthy. And if being sick for a while is what it takes, then I will do it with a smile. I do worry that I can't make the most of the time I do have with J because I feel so tired or nauseas. I know that he won't remember and can't understand what is going on, but I just don't want him to miss out on anything, either.