Welcome ICLW!

Happy ICLW! If you are new to my blog, here is a quick overview of my TTC history: I went of BC October 2008 and got a BFP December 23, 2008! Sadly, we found out that our baby didn't have a heartbeat at our first prenatal appointment and I started bleeding a few days later. We continued trying on our own until our first RE appointment March 2010. The RE is testing me to see if I have a chromosome problem (which would essentially mean I have bad eggs) which runs in my family and I am just finishing my first cycle on Clomid.

In cycle news, I got a stellar temperature this morning...99.04! However, I am not getting my hopes up because I also think I might be getting sick. I have had a really sore throat and some other respiratory symptoms, so we'll see what happens. I am either 12DPO or 9DPO depending on how you want to interpret my temps. I am not relying on FF to interpet my chart this month. I figure that I will wait and see what my body decides to do the rest of the week, and then maybe I will test Saturday or Sunday.

Also, a BIG THANK YOU to my April Secret Pal! She sent me this super cute bracelet that has charms saying "achieve", "success", and "believe". I love it, it made my day, and it fits perfectly. Thank you so much!!!

Confusing Clomid

So, I thought one of the benefits of taking Clomid is that it is supposed to make your cycles be more regular??? Here I am on CD 17 and feeling super confused. Last week at the u/s, the RE said that it looked like I was Oing or about to O. I thought that was great news! I was having some O pain plus some EWCM. The only concern I had was that I hadn't gotten a peak on my CBEFM. DH and I made sure that we BD and thought that all was good. Fast forward to today, and I still haven't gotten a peak, I haven't seen a consistent temperature rise, I am having some slight O pains, plus I have more EWCM than I did on CD 12!!! WTF!?! I don't know if I should just assume that I did O based on the RE's assessment, or is my body just confused and messed up? If I haven't O'd, I don't want to stop BD and risk missing it, but at the same time, I don't want to keep scheduling it if it isn't necessary. I know that we have to keep BD until I am sure one way or the other, but still...

Frustration!!!

As you can see, I'm feeling a bit frustrated. This morning, I received the following e-mail from the genetics counselor we have been working with:

"Sorry this is taking so long. It usually doesn't. I just got a phone call from the insurance saying that they are denying coverage, which is really unusual. I am going to go ahead and start the appeal process (If that is ok with you). Usually that means that I have to talk with the reviewer directly. I am back in the office on Monday, so hopefully I can get someone next week. They have some new reviewers and I'm a little concerned because I have had a couple of patients who in the past we have gotten approval for that I am really having to fight for. Sorry! But I'll keep trying."

Really??? Why are we the couple that had to get the new guy and ended up not getting approval??? I just want to get this test over with so that I can move on with things. Hopefully we will get an approval after the appeal, but who knows how long that will take. We have been working on this since the beginning of March!

Once again, I am also feeling frustrated with fertility friend. When I plugged in my temp this morning, it moved my O date from CD 12 to CD 19. WTF?!?! Like it matters anyway...I am starting to feel bloated and crampy. My guess is AF will make her appearance this weekend.

98.2

My temp registered at 98.2 this morning, which is typically a bit elevated from where I am before O. However, when I look at my chart, it seems like my temps are just all over the place. I don't know what to think this month. I still haven't seen a peak on the CBEFM, but is there any chance it could have missed it? I still have some EWCM, but not as much as there was a few days ago. I suppose I just need to hang in there, try not to stress, and keep BD.

I am feeling a little frustrated with FF. FF says that I didn't O until CD 20...I think that I must have O'd before then based on how my body was acting.

Here is a look at my chart as of this morning:


I know it doesn't really make a difference...what's done is done. I am either KU or I'm not. But I just feel frustrated because it seems like each cycle lately has been so varied. My cycles used to be like clockwork, and now I feel like my whole pelvic region is just effed up. My pelvic pain is back, but I don't know if it is bad enough to call the doctor about. What if it is gone by the time the u/s is scheduled? What if it isn't bad enough for them to see what they need? Maybe I should just try and be patient for next week.

Back on the Wagon

After having such high temps at the end of last cycle, I decided to get back on the wagon and chart my temperatures again. I guess there really isn't that big of a need for it since I use a CBEFM, but I decided it couldn't hurt. The crazy thing is that it is taking forever for my temps to drop. My coverline used to be around 97.6ish, and I am still above 98.0. It makes me wonder even more if I really did have a CP last cycle.

For some reason, I haven't really been that stressed about TTC so far this cycle. I am not sure if it is because I have a doctor's appointment next week and that is keeping me preoccupied, or if maybe it is because since AF arrived, I just haven't been "feeling it". Last night, DH asked me when we would have to start FWP again, and it took me a minute to be able to answer him; normally I would know the answer immediately. Whatever the reason, it has been kind of nice to not have TTC be such a stress.