Monday, December 14, 2009
Are you Freaking Kidding Me???
Since Saturday night, I have had the privilege of finding out that my two closest friends just got pregnant. To top things off, this was both of their first cycle's TTC. While I am telling them congratulations and trying to keep a smile pasted to my face, I can't help but scream on the inside. I know life isn't fair, but it sure does seem like a double whammy to have my two closest girlfriends both get pregnant at the same time on their first cycle. How does this happen? I feel like the fertility gods are conspiring against me! When they told me that they were going to start TTC, I thought for sure that I would have at least a few months to prepare myself and that hopefully I would be pregnant before they both were. Obviously, no such luck. I don't know how well I am going to be able to cope with having to hang around them and have them talk about their pregnancies and their upcoming due dates, when I am the one that has been trying for so much longer, yet have the empty uterus. Perhaps as things progress, I will feel differently and be able to adapt to things. I will admit though that there is some immature part of me that wants to find new friends that either don't want kids, can't have kids, or are in the same boat as me.