Welcome ICLW and My Thoughts on This Cycle

First, if you are new to my blog, welcome! You can learn more about me by visiting this post. In a nutshell, DH and I have been married since August 2006 and have been TTC since November 2008. We got KU in December 2008, has a m/c in January 2009, and haven't had any success since then.

So, I am already starting to feel like this cycle is likely a bust. It didn't help that my CBEFM never picked up a "peak" - I think that this is likely because I O'd so much earlier than normal. Based on my temps, I O'd on CD 12. Last cycle it was closer to CD 20, so I feel like my body is all over the place. My temps have been good, but I have had very few, if any, phantom symptoms. My boobs hurt a little bit this morning, but that is already gone. The frustrating thing is that my pelvic pain has been bothering me the last few days. I used to think that it was related to when I O'd but maybe not? I try and tell myself that it is all in my head, since the u/s didn't pick up on anything abnormal. I just don't think I can totally brush it off since I notice it at the most random times.

Anyway, besides the cycle, life is good. DH and I went to look at cars yesterday, and we ended up coming home with a Nissan Xterra. It was a good compromise for us. We traded in our Yukon and DH wanted a truck, while I wanted something smaller. We are looking forward to the weather getting warmer so that we can take it out camping and try pulling our 4-wheelers with it.

I have also noticed lately that I have been feeling a lot happier and less stressed. That probably doesn't make much sense when I was just venting about my cycle and I have recently expressed concern over the chromosome testing. I have just noticed that it is becoming easier for me to not focus and dwell on TTC and IF all the time. It is something I still think about, but it is not the central focus of my thoughts. It is getting easier for me to be around my pg BFF and genuinely be interested in how her pg is going. I was even thinking that perhaps I would make her a baby quilt and I started thinking about what I could do to give her a baby shower. I don't want to say that I am 100% happy and good, but I am better and I don't feel like IF and TTC is ruling my life. It is part of me, but I am in control. I know that there will still be hard days and hard times, but at least they are becoming fewer.